What If...

Did anybody watch last tues 星期二特写: 生死一线? It's abt a young mom who has diagnosed with advanced breast cancer in 2005, and early this year the cancer has spread to her brain, lungs, liver and bones. She is kind of preparing her hubby and her two children Josie & Toby the life ahead when she's no longer with them. She has pre-prepared all their bday presents and put them nicely in a box, so that when she's not there to celebrate with them, she still has presents for her 2 children.

I cried buckets during the show... as a mother, What if you cant see your children growing up.. Will she remember me ? my face? my smell? my voice? any events? Im not too sure if she's lucky, as least, she knows in adv, and she's preparing... she's trying hard to leave whatever she can so that her children can remember, trying to get some insight into what Josie and toby might be facing in the years ahead and what can she do to help them... losing a mother as a young age is hard.

Life is unpredictable...

What if ... Im not ard....

so here's my advanced letter for my lit' girl

To Reia On your first day to School

How was School, my baobao? Im sure daddy is there during your recess time. Did you have loads of fun? Did you cry and refuse to go to school? You are a big girl now, big Girl pack their own bag.. do their homework... if you need help in your study, always look for your daddy. Remember, you are always mommy's brave lit' girl

To Reia On the day of your first menses.

Fret not, my lit' lady. Look for yiyis or gugu for advice. Dont worry abt the cramps, get some painkiller if it's really bad.... normally it will go away on the first few days. you can always count on your daddy to throw tantrums at. Cheer Up gal! Nothing can dampen your mood!

To Reia On your 16th Birthday.

Awww.. Happy Sweet 16! What a pretty lady you are now...Bet there must be a lot of bees buzzing ard you....go slow my girl..... enjoy the attention, flowers and gifts... 'O' level is coming... mommy wish U all the Best.... JC or Poly.... Let me know your choice.. Besides Studies, mommy hope you can pursue your passion if you have any, be it dancing, drawing, music, or anything. It's important to study hard as well as Play hard.

To Reia On your 18th Birthday.

You have the VISA to go clubbing! Welcome to the chiongster World, aren't you excited?..... Control your alcohol level... and dont you dare to pick up smoking! Please inform your dad where you will be and the time you will be back! Im sure he's happy to chauffeur you back home. I'm fine with tattoo-ing... but not your bf's name pls.... get permission from your dad first. Happy Birthday Reia!

hah, i can be bo-liao at times....

xoxo

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